The silence isn't so bad when you aren't afraid.

I'm going to sleep with no headphones in tonight, because while music can save a life, it can also distract you from it. I'm ready to listen to what is already there.

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In another life, I would be your girl.

Who would of thought? That after all this time, we would be standing inches from a kiss. Clenching our fists, and talking in low voices.

We have left so many times. We have come back even more. So I guess we are still in eachothers lives for a reason. I remember that night we danced at your sisters wedding. You asked them to play "My Wish" by Rascal Flatts, my favorite song at the time. You smiled that handsome grin of yours and put your arms around me, and we slow danced beneath the stars. It was a perfect night, and I want you to know... If I had another life, if things were different, you would be the one I spent the rest of my life with. We would go to College and take on the world together.

I have loved you for so long, it's hard to let you go. You think i'm crazy for doing this, and I think I am too. But there is something that burns inside me that knows I have a different path to lead. Everyone has their sacrafices in life. I think you are mine.

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Something to hope for.

I have tried a hundred times. Each time being sure that this time would be different from all the failed atempts. Now here I sit, missing school becuase my school shirts are getting to tight on me. At this point, I wonder if I will ever get better. How many times will I fall down in despair after another one of my clothes are too small? "It took Edison 1000 tries to get it right." That's what I have to keep telling myself. That I WILL get this right. My mom once told me that God repeats lessons until learned. So, i'm going to do my best to learn this lesson. I have to have hope for something... and who knows. Maybe this will be the time that I find my perfect lightbulb.

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